Time is fleeting. A general knowledge. It should be a general knowledge. Yet how easily we forget. How easily I forget. There is always this bright tomorrow, right? This sunny tomorrow filled with new opportunities, filled with what seems an eternity of time. If I can’t do it now, I can always do it tomorrow.
Caught up in the now, in this very moment, I can’t grasp this mortality of mine. I forget that one day I too shall grow old and die. I am not immortal. I don’t have time on my side. Time is fleeting, as it always does. Time is neutral. It doesn’t care about me or anyone else for that matter. Its only job is to keep on ticking. Tic Toc Tic Toc.
Days go by in front of my eyes. Days turn into weeks and weeks into months. Before I know years have gone by without my knowledge. Years gone by – unaware. Yet it doesn’t seem that long ago. Yet again it seems eternities ago. So many things have happened – both good and bad. Opportunities grabbed – opportunities lost. Yet why is it mostly the lost ones that haunt me now? Why do the things I could have achieved but did not haunt me now? Why am I time-aware all of a sudden? Time is fleeting. And yet at important moments I forget the clock ticking. Yet time keeps on fleeting.
Growing old. Growing older. A child no longer.
It’s time to remember.
Life is no dress rehearsal.
And one day – I too shall fall.
We make mistakes, we fall. We misunderstand. We are misunderstood. Heck, we don’t even understand. Nor ourself nor others. We overreact. We exaggerate. We feel hurt. And we hurt back. We are caught up in the moment. We don’t see it clearly anymore. Maybe things are just blurred by those tears falling down our cheek. Blurred by those feelings of being shattered. (Once again.) And while all this concatenation of stuff is happening, reason is not our best friend. Future consequences don’t exist. No one else matters while we try to pick up the pieces and mend ourself. And at the end, all that is left behind is: guilt, remorse, awkwardness, uncertainty & change. Relationships have changed. We can’t go back and there is no way back. We don’t even know where we would go back to. We no longer feel the comfort in that relationship. We are left with doubts. About everything. About the future.
Afterwards nothing is quite the same anymore. We realize that soon enough.
Unfortunately. We might be left feeling guilty for the whole situation. As if we have no one to blame but ourself. We might talk ourself into believing this. And we might talk ourself into feeling guilty. Or we might blame others.
♦But please let us be kind. Be kind to ourself. And be kind to others.♦
We might have made a mistake or many mistakes. But we can’t continue living consumed with guilt or anger. We can’t continue playing the blame game. We need to learn our lessons & we need to forgive ourself. And we need to forgive others. Most importantly we need to grow. Keep on growing & moving forward. Don’t stay stuck in that uncertain moment. Move forward. Be happy. Explore. Perfection doesn’t exist and we are far from being perfect. We too deserve a second chance. We too deserve to be happy again.